What is God to me? This is the first question that rises up to an inquiring
soul. And the second is like unto it,-What am I to God? On these two
questions hang all religion, as well as all joy and life to the immortal spirit.
If God is for me, and I am for God, all is well. If God is not for me, and if I
am not for God, all is ill (Rom 8:31). If He takes my side, and if I take His,
there is nothing to fear, either in this world or in that which is to come. If
He is not on my side, and if I am not on His, then what can I do but fear?
Terror in such a case must be as natural and inevitable as in a burning house or
a sinking vessel.
Or, if I do not know whether God is for me or not, I can have no rest. In a
matter such as this, my soul seeks certainty, not uncertainty. I must know that
God is for me, else I must remain in the sadness of unrest and terror. In so
far as my actual safety is concerned, everything depends on God being for me;
and in so far as my present peace is concerned, everything depends on my knowing
that God is for me. Nothing can calm the tempest of my soul, save the knowledge
that I am His, and that He is mine.
Our relationship to God is then to us the first question; and till this is settled,
nothing else can be settled. It is the question of questions to us, in comparison
of which all other personal questions are as moonlight.
In the great things of eternity nothing but certainty will do; nothing but certainty
can soothe our fears, or set us free to attend to the various questions of lesser
moment which every hour brings up. The man who can continue to go about these lesser
things, whilst uncertainty still hangs over his everlasting prospects, and the great
question between his soul and God is still unsettled must be either sadly hardened
or altogether wretched.
Horatius Bonar, The Everlasting Righteousness